The world Maths day, is supposed to be held every 1st Wednesday of March. It is the largest online maths competition, and involves playing 60 sec. Games with the platform heavily based on Live Mathletics. The contest has age appropriate mental math problems that test the accuracy and speed of the students as they compete with students across the globe. It is a bi-annual even, since 2007, open to students between 4-18, patronized by the UNICEF organized by 3P learning.
This year however the event is scheduled for 14th October.
“You are unorganized” how many of these epithets have heard. And what I have heard has stayed with hurting me and creating that sense of worthlessness. I know it important not let it affect us, but learn that is one of the most difficult challenges that I face.
Particularly when I was younger and more sensitive, I used to take so much of this to heart, brood over it until the poison altered me within. The remnant of the poison still exists. When these criticisms, come from different people, it could be for different reason I would feel attacked from all directions and recovery was very difficult. I developed a scar called sarcasm. I learnt methods to stop myself from speaking and acting my truth, so much so I forgotten my truth.
It was only when I was observing the ducks, and the old quote on water on duck’s back came to me, I realized what it meant.
Now at 50 I realize that attacks and criticism are more about the person who delivering them, and how they feel about themselves than us. in trying to adjust myself to other’s energy I realized I was losing in touch with my own core. What I learnt post Landmark forum education, and hypnotherapy is these slings and arrows offered me the opportunity to strengthen my own core sense of self and to learn to dodge and deflect other people’s misdirected negativity. The more I did this, the more I was able to discern what belonged to me and what belonged to other people. With practise I could regain my energy integrity by refusing to serve as a target for the disowned anger and frustration of the people around me.
I know criticism may not be agreeable, but it is necessary. It fulfils the same function as pain the human body. it calls attention to the development of an unhealthy state of things. If heeded in time, danger maybe averted. If suppressed a fatal distemper may develop.
Eventually I may be able to hear the feedback that others have to offer taking in anything that might actually be constructive and release the irrelevant. But first step though was and is, to tend to myself with compassion by recognizing that I cannot take something in from outside without hurting myself, this is where I had to be a duck shaking it off and letting it roll off my back as I continued my way in the world.
Eventually, we will be able to hear the feedback that others have to offer, taking in anything that might actually be constructive, and releasing that which has nothing to do with us. First, though, we tend ourselves compassionately by recognizing when we can’t take something in from the outside without hurting ourselves. This is when we make like a duck, shaking it off and letting it roll off our back as we continue our way in the world.
The kathale Basadi at Barkuru was a fascinating place for kids. My aunt’s house being right in front of us, my cousins Asha and Latha would keep a watch on the couples that meandered there are pass light-hearted comments.
It was cousin Asha who would tell us about the story of Tippu sultan escaping from here. How the original Jain basadi was left to detoriate when the later kings took on
Basadi’s are the Jains worship places, the first chappara is an open one, which a set of chappara’s to its left, these look like some kind of hallways,
The garba-griha or sanctum sanctorum with the yajna kund layout, and the lotus motif on top.
Interesting picture of dwarapalaka’s the guardians, they are four armed with shankha-chakra and gadha… one of the arms is chopped off, one could imagine that it either had varda haste or the Parma.
The Shiva temple shows a lingo that can be moved. Whether this is intentional or the result of neglect and aging I do not know. Behind this are old edifices just abandoned, interestingly two of them are Tirthankaras and the rest are nagas.
The Kathalebasadi of Barkuru is not only the reminant of Jain culture it also one of the most ancient structures of the area. Unfortunately neither the citizens, nor the Karnataka tourism or the archaeological surveys seem to find them worthy of attention, and care.
My husband’s guru once mentioned that if one need strength one had to go to the mountains, but if one needed courage one needed to look at the sea. Since this is the hexagon awareness month and I am working on it, I have been looking at the river Saraswati and some things just came up.
Other than this, I have always gone to the river side to sort my thoughts, or had a swim in the water to handle anger. One of the things that did come to me was, water can allow us experience a full release.
50% of our body is water, so is more than 50% of the earth’s surface. Water cleanses hydrates, contains and produces nourishment, as when we enter it, it holds us in an embrace that leaves no part of us untouched. Meditating with water can be a powerful way of aligning ourselves more fully with this support system that makes life both possible and pleasurable on so many levels.
The Indian system does, talk about, taking a dip in the water and saying prayers, this eventually substituted with pouring water over your head, after drawing water from the well, and now it is the shower.
For me, being in physical contact with a body of water has been kind of putting me in contact with the greater universe. It could be the intimacy of my bathtub, or the vast container of an ocean. I might float on my back swimming in a pool or just sitting with my feet submerged in a pond or creek. I have dealt with moments of acute anger or depression by just standing under a shower.
One of my favourite healing quick fix, is I focus on my breathing, go right back to banks of river Sita, listen to its flow, look at the visuals of my father on the tree, and listen to his voice telling me the stories, the point where the river falls down the creek creating a water fall. There seem to peace beneath the hectic surface of life, the cleansing power of a river racing through a canyon or the mood lifting melodic bubbling of a lively creek.
From there I flow right down to Barkur, where the river becomes calm, till it flows down Mabukola and reaches the sea. My first experience with the womb of the sea was when I was about eight and our boat capsized in the Arabian Sea, I remember the initial panic and then feeling of absolute security. Each time I meditate on water, these experiences return, this is so cleansing, healing and rejuvenating. After this I am ready to return to the solid ground.
The beauty of water is that it does not resist. It flows, when we plunge our hand into it, we feel its caress, it’s not a solid wall, and it will not stop us. But water always goes where it wants to go and nothing can really stop it. Water is patient, dripping water can wear a stone away, we are 50% water so if we can’t go through an obstacle we can go round it, just the way water does.
I just realized, watching water, we can learn so many things, no wonder the Rig Veda says,
Since this article is part of the Hexagon awareness series I am just restating what we all probably learnt at school. This is subjected more research and in depth understanding. Usually when we say hexagon, we mean regular hexagons, so is it here. but hexagonal does not necessarily refer to symmetric hexagons.
A hexagon is a figure with 6 edges and and 6 vertices, a regular hexagon is convex figure with sides of the same leght, and the internal angles or 120 degrees. It has 6 rotational symmetries and 6 reflection symmetries.
Hexagons are the only regular polygons that can be subdivided into another regular polygon.
Hexagons are unique regular polygon such that the distance between the centre and each vertex is equal to the length of each side.
As for number six it is the first perfect number, the second smallest composite number. It is the only number that is both the sum and the product of three consecutive numbers. That is
Hexagons can be tiled or tessellated, in a regular pattern. If like me you wondered what it was, then hexagon can bordered by six other hexagons which can themselves be bordered by six hexagons—including each other and so on ad infinitum, in any direction without leaving empty spaces. This kind of laying can be possible only with squares and triangles. This is probably why it is important in a variety of feilds. Look at our Chinese chekkar boards or the beehives. They are all hexagonal in pattern. Somewhere the hexagonal tessellation is a dual of triangular tessellation these can be converted to one to the other with a little alteration of layout. The hexagonal tessellation, or lattices are they are called, provides an ideal blend of efficiency and strength, and economy of material as compared to the triangle or square.
When it comes to circles, hexagons helps to pack cicles on a flat plane very efficiently. Though we are placing circles, their grid is hexagonal. Since cells tend to most efficient exposure of shapes, they tend to circularity, but lateral compression of the neighbours result in hexagonal tilting. This could be why hexagons are considered as natural shape.
The connect between triangles, and hexagons is a continuation of the relation of the hexagon with circle. Like I shared before, triangles and hexagons are the only two regular polygons. The hexagon can be divided into equilateral triangles while the triangle into subtriangles.
This is quite hectic, to go on, I am just teasing your thoughts as it is the month of Hexagon awareness. Hexagons pop up in unsual places like aromatic chemistry, healing, bio-sciences, mathematics, spirituality whatever. Like I shared before for me the benzene hexagon is the representative of vibrant life.
Yesterday we were celebrating my friend’s birthday, since all the four of us, are just a day apart, we decided to pamper ourselves something we rarely find time to do. As we got discussing I we realized that gracious acceptance is an art – something which most of us do not bother to cultivate. We are bothered about giving, we forget about accepting. What we don’t realize is when we accept another person’s gift we are allowing him to express his feelings for us.
Accepting gifts is not about greedy, or anticipating the gift in its material sense, even a box full of darkness is a gift too. Accepting is about saying yes to the universe. to open the gate o receiving what our soul really wants.
Again we think of gifts in tangible material format, but gift from the universe would mean accepting everything that life puts in front of us. we do say no to things we don’t like and yes to things we like,.
Here is the challenge I face, in a way, accepting what the universe throws is surrender isn’t it also being a looser?
My coach Hari Kotian from Landmark told me, acknowledging the existence of what’s not working triggers the process of change, the key according to him was accepting that it is not working, as I understood what he put to me, accepting meant conversing with the universe, and beginning the conversation with a powerful word –Yes
To him that hath shall be given, after all, we must have the capacity to receive or even the omnipotent cannot give. Maybe our own passion temporarily destroys the capacity, to enter a state of trust that whatever our situation is, we can work with it. this would require confidence in ourselves, in the universe and an willingness to learn from whatever comes out way. when something that we do not like comes our way, maybe we should question ourselves to what will it take for us to get to the point of saying yes. It could be being pushed against something we cannot ignore, or it might just be a natural progression of events that leads us to making the decision.
Then the first step to saying yes is realizing that in the end it is so much easier than the alternative.. again this leaves me with a question is this not being an escapist? How does this work with receiving with an open heart, after all until we receive with an open heart, we never really can give with an open heart. When we attach judgements to receiving help then our giving also becomes judgemental.
Maybe we give and receive with gratitude. Doing the former without expectation of the latter.
Someday I shall assimilate this war within me, and be at peace.
Like I said,yesterday, my breakdown left me totally dysfunctional I lost my opportunity to participate in something that I really wanted to. Had I removed that block, which my own creation a reaction to someone else’s behaviour I could have been where I wanted to be.
There are so many times that this happens we do not feel our best and brightest, maybe what we need to do then is to let our inner light shine to the fullest. This could be because we are physical, mental and spiritual beings. We need to determine where our spiritual light is being filtered or blocked. We can work from the outside inward knowing that we are the only ones with the power to dim our lights and clear away the layers that reduces our light.
It is like a cycle, when the body is low, the mind is low, I guess the soul is also effect, I do not really understand soul, for me soul manifests as energy. So caring for myself, I know is essential, for it is like polishing. The dust that gathers, physically, the inert layer due to lack of exercise, the mind dulled by depression, they all inhibit our true illumination.
All that is required is shift in thought. This shift can be achieved by moving from complaints to gratitude, and applying the powerful light of love to any shadowy thoughts. The change in scenery can allow us to see the world in new ways too.
This change is risky and so scary and yet the same time, so beautiful, maybe the truth is it should not be easy be amazing. They everything would be. Its the things we fight form and struggle with before earning that have the greatest worth. When something is difficult to come by we’ll do that much more to make sure it’s harder – if not impossible to lose.
Once we are fee of our restrictions, we can become still and connect to the power at the centre of our being. It is always there for us, but when we forget to connect or siphon our power in too many directions we cannot make the most of our energy,. Starting from inside out may direct us to take the right steps for our journeys back to the light. But sometimes it can be difficult to find the stillness if our bodies and minds are in the way.